if i were a bOy

i'm sick & tired of being the "back up" or the "girl on the side."
QUIT FUCKIN BUGGIN & HINT THE WORD COMMITMENT.

J: everytime this foo & his girlfriend breaks up, he comes in my work, calls or IMs me to tell me they broke up. then a few days later they're back together. behind his girlfriends back, he'd tell me he always thought i was cute & shit. when in reality my co-worker is his ex-girlfriend that tells me how he's so into asians.

R: since that day i met this foo in 8th grade, he's cool & whatnot. had a girlfriend back then & she didn't know he would try flirting with me. they break up, a few years later he gets with someone else. another low key tryna flirt with me & this girlfriend doesn't know either. now single, yet "talking" to a girl as he had asked me "so what are we now?" straight up busted him telling him i know he's talking to someone. as i talked to one of his close homegirls, she loves him to death but knows i could do better because he's been putting me low key after all this time.

L: i could remember when me & my ex would fight over this foo just because he would always pinch my cheeks. i haven't heard from this foo since me & my ex broke up. yet, i'd get so much calls from different numbers & messages. as soon as he realized i ignored every damn call, he stopped. few months later i see him with one of my cute little girl friends. they're going out for awhile & recently i heard him screw her over. i get a random ass call from a number i don't know & i don't answer of course. i called from a private number to see who it was, this foo calls me back saying my name knowing it was me that called. i tripped out because i called on private & found out it was him. in my head, i'd think how random was that when i haven't heard from him in like 3 years or so?! now hella buggin with calls & messages. no way am i gonna get more drama when your ex still has feelings for you! BEEN THERE DONE THAT.

do me a favor?
LEARN HOW TO PLAY YOUR "GAME."
shit's a small world for god's sake,
your stuff gets around FAST.

i'm happily single & NOT looking. i'll keep it at that because at this very moment, i LOVE life! :)