why&how

how --

i've told others about this quote before & i never really got the chance to tell myself it:
"how much you put in, determines how much it will hurt when it ENDS."

lesson learned --

"don't give your all."

why --

a cousin broke it down for me:
"i think part of it is because you never had to try hard to get the guy's attention."

another lesson learned --

clean it all up; no more sippin.

another realization --

QUIT BEING A GIRL! i never felt so miserable having to vent detailed about how i've been feeling. i never had no sleep or cannot eat over it either! i KNOW better & i KNOW i'm stronger than a weakling. learn from the past & quit. it's gone too far.

i'm thankful he's still there, i'm glad he's still that friend i can turn to, & i'm greatful he happened to make a great impact in my life.

last --

i'm happy because it happened with a good person. he's STILL worth being my friend no matter how bad the circumstances were.

QUIT the < / 3

&&& --

i'm sure not a lot specifically READ this unless they are bored. an updates an update & i'm doing a lot better.

ONE final down, FOUR more to go! with a project due tuesday & an interview on sunday!

"with god ALL things are POSSIBLE."