when life's a rOller cOaster; the only thing you can do is HOLD ON.

tuesdays & thursdays happen to be my longest days of school. but this past thursday i happen to skip anatomy class to hang out in LA. jhoelle told me to do it since they call me "miss perfect attendance." after going to my nutrition class & my most dreadful class which was statistics. i needed to get out of there especially finding out how bad i've been struggling with math.. =( the drive to northridge was a quick 30-40 minute drive which i would think i'd hit rush hour mad traffic but i didn't. met up with scott & we met up with jen, jeff, gem, elysse, darin & ray at pink's & pixels. fun, fun. but while i was there, i received a text from my sister saying that our dog, maddie got run over. =( the preggie wifey of scooper. sad to say we've only had her for a month or so & she's gone already.

overall that day was full of fun & thoughts.

in all honesty, i have no idea what my feelings are now that i've been through several heart breaks. beings friends is just as good as having someone right beside you who is always there for you. as i was told before, it's unhealthy to stop your feelings when you should just let it go with the flow. & my feelings happen to STILL be there, but i've been trying to stop it as i "slickfully" try not to pay attention. it's hard going from real good friends to "talking" then trying to get back to how it was before as JUST FRIENDS. i'm good at forgiving, but it's difficult to forget the good stuff in the past. yea, i miss things here & there but you can't help but think. i still get the questions from others though: "so what's up with you two now?" "are you still talking to.." "why did you guys stop talking?" like i have no idea what questions HE gets. overall i keep reminding myself to just let it go.. it's hard but you don't want someone who's just "NOT THAT INTO YOU.." <-- not from the book of "he's just not that into you" but it's self-explanatory & true. play it cool & know that we're both thankful we're still friends. as he always says, "it's a thank you for being my friend." haha..

rest in peace babygirl doggie, maddie <3